Everything leads back
to source.
That's what I've
learned over time, through the spiritual realms I have roamed and the emotional
healing work I have done.
Years ago, in my
early 20s, I set out to heal this weary soul, which was heartbroken over what I
believed was neglect and what I experienced as loneliness. I was disconnected
from others and disconnected to a source that would - if I acted upon it and
let it live through me - sustain me, enliven me and usher in a sense of bliss
and joy.
Not that I am
consistently connected now, far from it; I often struggle in the pursuit of
divine union. But what I've gathered over my healing work, men's work,
breathwork, meditation and prayer is that no matter where I start or where I
am, this place can follow a thread straight back to my source.
The so-called
"positive" emotions and thoughts are easy to trace back.
Happiness = I am on
track, connected with purpose and the life-force that illuminates this soul's
sojourn.
Now it's those pesky
so-called "negative" emotions and thoughts. How could they be
anything but misguided and errant? How would these be a place to start on a
path towards the light.
We are never left
alone, not even in our own mind, dimmed and distracted by darker feelings and
beliefs.
Here is one example that comes to mind.
If I am to feel
angry, I don't need to remain there. I can follow the thread inward from this
starting point.
I don’t need to make
it wrong or right or positive or negative.
It’s just what it is
– a signpost alerting me to attend to some stirrings within.
As long as I don't
judge the emotion, I won't get stuck in it. We get stuck in our beliefs and
feelings the moment we judge them. It’s like judging creates a big brick wall
that won’t allow us movement or transcendence.
The freedom of the
innocent life allows us to graduate level upon level, as long as the surface
level (at the time) is acknowledged and embraced. It’s at these times of flow
we can follow the thread down.
- Anger not judged can be seen to be frustration.
- Frustration not judged can be seen to be fear.
- Fear not judged can be seen to be loss.
- Loss not judged can be seen to be sadness.
- Sadness not judged can be seen to be heartbreak.
- Heartbreak not judged can reveal a heart so wanting expression.
- A heart so wanting expression proves the existence of that endearing love.
- Love that is freed makes way for the dawn of soul, which has existed since time began.
I have learned that
no matter the expression – of heart, mind and even action – there is one
motivating force below it all.
Below everything is a
force-field and life-force that continually pushes upward like a seed moving
skyward through the soil.
To discover this
eternal force, you must simply pull on that thread. Follow it down. With no
quit. With a steady breath and a faithful knowing.
It is here, we can
find our true calling. And our true self.
Right there at
source.
James Anthony Ellis can be reached at www.LegacyProductions.org.
James Anthony Ellis can be reached at www.LegacyProductions.org.
