Friday, June 2, 2017

My Momma Will Walk Again



I wrote this in February 2013 prior to my mother's passing when she was still bed-ridden. She passed in July 2014, into the freedom beyond the physical. 











I silently watch as my mother rests in her bed
Made to soothe and comfort, and lift when need be
It makes it easier on her hip and her head
It makes it easier on her suffering knees
I quietly watch in agony believing she's never coming back
I find no words to speak, there's no place to hide
Invisible enemies of the past I plan to attack
Then surrender to the loss and the longing inside
I know it's not the start
I pray it's not the end
In dream-scapes and within my heart
My momma will walk again


My mother will stand up and walk once more
She'll effortlessly glide from room to room
She'll walk towards and then out that front door
She'll marvel again at the sun, the stars, the moon
She may even skip or dance or run for a bit
She'll be able to plant her flowers in her own garden
Then … in its splendor … simply kneel down and sit
Yes, my momma will walk again
I know it's not the start
I pray it's not the end
In dream-scapes and within heaven's heart
My momma will walk again
My momma will walk again


Beyond the polarities of the loss and the win
Beyond the cruelties of sickness and sin
Beyond the conversations we never did begin
Beyond the places we longed to have been
Beyond the pain that all of us are in
In the peace and love found only within
In God's sweet embrace of an eternal heaven
In a timeless dream-state I long to live in
My momma will walk again
My momma will walk again
My momma will walk again

  - jae

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